My Daily Life.

Asthma symptoms getting worse?

I have a feeling that it’s mainly due to my diet since I ate a lot of instant noodles the past week along with cold drinks since orientation 3 weeks ago!

I kinda panicked when I get shortness of breath, having to use a rescue inhaler, ventolin, 2x a day!

Until I remember… MANUKA HONEY! I have more than 1kg worth of Manuka Honey in my pantry and I’ve been lazy to take it ever since my symptoms have improved.

Shouldn’t have done that!

So now, I’m going to prepare myself a pretty hot Manuka honey drink for school later, and maybe I will be bringing that from today onwards!

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Uni Life.

Update: MUSIC CLUB!

So during the CCA Club Drive, I’ve signed up for Music Club! My heart has been yearning to join a club musically-related again. It just means that I need to update my schedule and manage my time well for my studies, although all is well so far since I’ve finished my assignment the day before yesterday!

Yesterday, it was guitar/ukulele lesson and it costs only $1 per lesson. After which, at the end of the semester, there would be a pizza party! 

I brought along my uke since I feel I need to freshen up my memory and brush up my skills. And boy, my fingertips have been sore since yesterday’s class! I feel like I will get calluses again like in the past when I used to play often. But it’s okay!

I just love how our club has people of different nationalities, coming together as one for the love of music; be it love for musical instruments, or singing, or both!

These are the photos that I got from the seniors:

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This my Ukulele group!
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I’m the one with the pixie cut~
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This is the guitar group!

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The names that attended the guitar/ukulele lesson yesterday! (They say there will be prizes to those who attended all lessons till the end of the semester!)
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The president of the music club teaching how to position the fingers in playing the guitar.
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Learning how to play the cajon~
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The senior who teaches basic guitar skills.
Mental Health, Uni Life.

Update: I can’t be bothered.

Don’t ever think that I get things easy
Don’t even think that I get what I want just because I had ‘experience’
I have no experience before I joined my current company as a freelance enrichment teacher
I’ve told you so many times but you kept insisting that I had one
Saying that I get relief class easily during my first 3 months because I was experienced.
I don’t know which part of my sentence you don’t understand
Whether you understand simple English
Because I am frustrated.

I understand that you are insecure, and you have all those unnecessary thoughts on how you might never get classes since you are considered in ad-hoc
But by saying that I got things easy in the past pissed me off big time
You didn’t even reply to my messages, that’s one
But you replied to XE in the group chat, that’s two

I honestly feel like I’ve given you a lot of encouragement and advises, that you’ve taken granted of
When I messaged about our ppt since we have to do it this coming Wednesday, then you replied me but only for that message, that’s three
You’ve been heavily depending on me and not ashamed of saying that you really rely on me, that’s four
I am not perfect. I might need your help too especially since I’m quite forgetful, but nope I couldn’t rely on you, that’s five
The girls you told me are “weird” just because they are different from the others?
They are the ones who have helped me out and are such kind angels.

E helped to correct my task out when she saw a mistake in my post in the Discussion Board.
She also helped to clarify my doubts even though she doesn’t know as well. 
M is such a positive and calm girl, we have something in common!
She struggled with depression, anorexia, and bulimia. 
I am struggling with bipolar disorder.
In a way, we have/had mental disorders and that made us clicked.
Both E and M are such encouraging souls.
As friends, we need to depend and rely on each other.
We need to encourage and motivate one another.
When it is one-sided, that’s not called friendship.
That’s just making use of a person for your own good.

I don’t know how I have to face you again on Tuesday,
But you know what?
I’m just going to let it go.
Whatever happens, happens
Because I’m in uni to study and to be a better-skilled and educated teacher
And I know I won’t be alone since I’ve made friends with everyone 

Teaching.

What even…?

So something happened at work on Friday after I finished teaching my class. I was supposed to update here but didn’t have time to do it, sorry! Too busy with readings and assignments!

The grandfather of one of my students started to ask me what was she learning.

I told him that we were learning about subtraction, but there is a concern because she’s not able to write numbers! However, I managed to make it simpler for her by writing the numbers in dotted lines.

And then all of a sudden, it turns out to be my fault, and him trying to preach me about what I should do as a teacher and about children’s psychology…

…okay

And then I told him I will talk about it to the teacher-in-charge because I’m obviously not in-charge, but he began “tsk, tsk, tsk..” me with his head up high proud, saying that I should be the one planning.

Hold on right here Mister.

We are enrichment teachers. We teach according to what the lesson plan has been organised by the superior. In fact, we only spend 1 hour of your granddaughter’s time, teaching. We are not your main kindergarten teacher who spends the whole day with her.

He talked about how he couldn’t talk to the other teachers because they’re busy (absolutely, especially when you keep on beating about the bush for 30 mins with me, do you think they have the time when they have a bigger class?) and that I have listened to his concerns, and that he has listened (no) to my feelings.

I suggested that I would do extra work for her so that she would practice writing. But guess what?

“She won’t listen to me, to her mummy, to her daddy at home. So she won’t do anything at home even if we said so! She only listens to the teacher especially if the teacher is firm and strict.”

After he said that, I realised that he is trying to push their responsibilities to me just because I am a teacher and he even told me to be strict with her?

THEN WHAT HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN DOING AT HOME?

Education at home is equivalent with education in school. If you don’t or ‘can’t’ discipline your daughter/granddaughter to learn, then what makes you think you have the right to tell me all of this bs?

I told G about all this since he’s in-charge of maths, and he said, “Some people only know how to make babies but have no idea how to educate them!”

The thing is G had advised the grandfather before abt doing practices with his granddaughter, that’s the only way she can catch things up in school! But oh wow, the grandfather complained, “it’s been 3-4 months and I don’t see any difference!”

Well, firstly, it’s a learning journey. Some kids transformed for over 6 months if you’re consistent and patient.

However in your case, Mister Grandpa, you need to discipline and educate her at home as well.. You told me to be strict and firm? Do your part too!

Anyway, G will be talking to the school about the girl’s performance before he called the parents to tell about this issue.

Urgh, I swear some people can be so frustrating!

I’ve never had any guardian talking back at me and “educating” me rudely when I told about the progress of any child. The others listened, understood, asked qns for suggestions and open for ideas, and then thanked me.

But this old man just came up to me, being snobbish and arrogant while talking bs about the bush (it took me so long to be able to get what he’s trying to say I swear), belittling the teacher’s role and responsibilities, and never even say thank you.

Sigh.

My Daily Life.

#throwback: 1st Anniversary, 210717

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21 JULY 2017 is probably the best day of my life so far.

I’ve never gotten gifts for anniversaries before during my past relationships, hence, when I do receive surprise gifts here and there, I would always be genuinely blessed and grateful.

2 days ago, I was doing my revision before work and there was a delivery man right outside my door.

I thought it was my calculator but he said, “Flowers?”
😍😍😍😍😍 The bouquet is so beautiful and omg the ballllooooonnnnn 😍😍😍😍😍❤️❤️❤️❤️😱😱😱😱😱
What a lovely surprise!

After I came back from work, I saw 2 tins of Lemon Chamomile from boyfriend because chamomile tea is good for asthma and he knows that I love tea!
I’m so so grateful to have such an amazing man who respects and values me as a woman, and loving me unconditionally.

Thank you, love! xo

Mental Health, My Daily Life.

Nightmare -> Anniversary

So I woke up from a nightmare (I guess?) and my head hurts ever since.

My heart was beating so fast, I had to calm myself down a bit before entering the washroom.

I dreamt that i had to be in a machine and somehow something hooked at the bottom of the machine to carry us up to a tower…

So can you imagine? We were basically being dragged up in the air by the bottom of our machine, and we were literally hanging upside down.

And then when the loop at the sides have to be hooked onto the tower, the announcement said, "You can close your eyes and you won't fell so scared."

After a while, everything was still and I heard someone guiding us out.

I opened my eyes and I saw that we were already in the restaurant's balcony and mannnn…

The view was beautiful!

It was so high up in the sky, it's the same level as the fluffy clouds!

I looked at the spread of the buffet and it looked definitely scrumptious.

But I woke up with my heart beating so fast because it still wouldn't stop despite reaching the restaurant safely.

And then when I wanted to update Boyfriend about it, I realised today is our 1st year anniversary!

He had a long text with a video to wish me Happy 1st Anniversary! ❤️🌸

I planned to make a wish but I fall asleep instead 😕

Anyway, I'm so blessed to know that we manage to pull through for 12months. Long distance relationship can take a toll on us but our love is so bold, we manage to overcome certain challenges coolly.

Thank You, God, for guiding us through and never forgetting our relationship 🙏🏼🌸❤️

Mental Health, My Daily Life., Teaching., Uni Life.

I am competitive.

I may look like I don’t care

I may keep quiet as friends start to compare marks with each other

It’s not because I can’t be bothered,

But, I just wish to leave that course as soon as possible.

It was never my passion to be a Food Technologist.

However, when I started entering uni

Not only did I become organised but I’ve been trying my best to be as efficient as I can be

Studying daily, something that I’ve never done in my whole entire life before this

Making sure I score at least a Distinction for tasks and assignments

Giving my all in all school work.

I am competitive.

Because what I’m doing now is my passion

And studying for me now is both a want and a need.