It’s better this way.
To save my relationship, it’s better to bottle things in and not burden him anymore.
I don’t want to be triggered.
Neither do I want to trigger him.
How can I be so weak…?
Crying when I’m supposed to be studying
I’m so tired I feel like dying.
I can’t find motivation anymore…
I’ve been trying so hard to be strong, so hard to hold on,
But I can’t anymore.
I thought I will not have any suicidal thoughts anymore but no…
I really want to die.
Can I just jump down…
Will I be brave enough to do so?