Mental Health, Uni Life.

Recess Week!

It’s recess week already~ Woohoo, I can catch up on school a bit more and finish as many assignments as I can.  There will be a make-up class on Wednesday and I have to go to school earlier anyway to prepare for our microteaching next week so….

I’m so happy that I’m almost done with my part for Mathematics and Numeracy assignment. I like to get things done so that I can continue with re-writing my study notes this week!

Goals for this week:

  • Complete assignments
  • Finish up writing study notes for all

LET’S DO THIS!

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Uni Life.

How can one be so negative and prejudiced?

I’m not letting you bring me down

Go ahead and look down on us, because you wanna know why?

We are doing the things we love, supporting one another and striving forward

While you’re at the back, being a salty ass btch

I hate that I kept thinking about how horrible you actually are while I’m trying to remove the negativity away

Mental Health, Uni Life.

An Update About What’s Going On So Far

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So since orientation, I felt like my asthma symptoms got worse, right?

Then this week, I felt so feverish, and having to practice for talent show didn’t help at all.

My body just broke down and I had to take a break from everything.

Thank God there was a public holiday on Wednesday because I was able to rest the whole day then. But before that, on Tuesday, I stayed back to practice for my talent show under the drizzle, before meeting the rest for Vocal Flash Mob practice at 6 pm. I felt feverish and had to take 2 tablets of panadol.

So, I rested on Wednesday and Thursday, then on Friday, I had to go for a make-up lecture. On that day as well, my mom flew off to Penang with my aunts.

I just broke down emotionally because I felt so lonely, and it amplified since I wasn’t feeling well. I tried so hard not to cry since last Thursday (mom was on night shift so I couldn’t see her ever since she went off to work since I went to school the next day and she had to fly off before I finished my class) but tear started to just roll out last night after I woke up from my 3-hour nap.

I’ve never felt so lonely before and maybe it’s mainly due to my health condition since I was pretty super sensitive.

I guess the past few days including today, describes that my mental health is pretty much on a downside as well besides my physical health?

I know I couldn’t update as much as before ever since I started uni but I really need to jot this down, just so that I can refer to this back for my next appointment with my psychiatrist.

I have to continue with my assignment now. I will try to blog as much as I can!

Hwaiting!

 

p/s: There’s supposed to be Music Club today but I took the time off so that I can rest and complete my assignments. I deserve the rest and the isolation somehow, from people since having to face people when I’m in such condition, tend to be too much for me.

Mental Health, My Daily Life., Teaching., Uni Life.

I am competitive.

I may look like I don’t care

I may keep quiet as friends start to compare marks with each other

It’s not because I can’t be bothered,

But, I just wish to leave that course as soon as possible.

It was never my passion to be a Food Technologist.

However, when I started entering uni

Not only did I become organised but I’ve been trying my best to be as efficient as I can be

Studying daily, something that I’ve never done in my whole entire life before this

Making sure I score at least a Distinction for tasks and assignments

Giving my all in all school work.

I am competitive.

Because what I’m doing now is my passion

And studying for me now is both a want and a need.

Teaching., Uni Life.

Revelation?

After only 2 lectures, I have already asked myself, “Man, what have I been doing all these years? Heck, what have all the Singaporean students been doing all these years?”

For example, Singaporean children learn how to be “fluent” before learning how to “understand”. In Australia and some other parts of the world, children are taught the Understanding before Fluency, after which, Problem Solving will be much easier for them.
In short, we excel in Mathematics mainly due to memorisation instead of understanding the concept behind it like our friends in overseas.

And if it comes to Preschoolers, even though in Singapore, we do teach children how to solve “problems”, it is actually not enough. Australian preschoolers are already equipped into making bird/beetle houses, changing of water waves, knowing what to do and have already done picking and cleaning up litters, also not forgetting, finding ways to accommodate handicapped people.
No, I’m not kidding. They are younger than Primary 1 students but they’ve already done big things as compared to the kids here.

I told Ibu about this realisation and she said, “Because Singaporean parents are afraid to hurt their children, too afraid to expose their kids.”
When she said that, I realise that ang moh kids play with dirt and whatever to explore their little world, but Singaporean kids?

Something to ponder about eh?

My Daily Life., Uni Life.

Games Day! (Yesterday~)

Oh my I was so drained out last night after I reached home that I didn’t get to update my blog about the day!

We were out in the drizzle throughout the day, I had to quickly head to the hot shower when I reached home so that I won’t get sick.
I already had a headache and my previous knee injury was in pain.

So, yesterday was AMAZING! I wasn’t looking forward to Games Day but mannn the peeps were so sporting, enthusiastic and competitive! It makes it even amazing! The team leaders played a huge role in giving us the boost of energy!

Even though I didn’t get to participate in one of the games, I am pretty proud of myself considering I wasn’t athletic (I love swimming but I stopped because of my allergy).

Overall, I love the day yesterday despite having to be wet and dirty. I’ve never felt so competitive before and it surprised myself a lot, as told by Boyfriend.

Here are the photos taken yesterday:

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Team 14!
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Preparing to start the Caterpillar game where we have to put balloons in between us and walk through the maze.
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One of the side games (to earn points): Piggyback one of your team members!
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Another one!
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Another side game: Feeding each other.
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**Not my team** This was one of the games that we aced by getting 7 water bombs into the bucket.
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This game is pretty fun, and where I get mostly drenched since I was at the bottom, covering the holes of the pipes. So we have to fill up the pipe with water until we are able to retrieve the object that was floating inside. And yep, we won!
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Side game: Take a photo around the JCU sign.
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The BBQ Dinner was good. Sadly I didn’t have any appetite because of my wet socks and shoes, and probably due to lethargy.
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SP52 GAMES DAY 2017!
My Daily Life., Uni Life.

Yesterday’s Orientation

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Yesterday’s lunch in orientation!

Yesterday was a long day in Orientation and  I had been quite nervous about it for the past few weeks and days. However, alhamdulillah everything went on smoothly. I feel like me being stressed out beforehand and reading through everything from Blackboard way before Orientation, helped me in a way yesterday.

While others were stressing out on certain things, I was quite calm while guiding the others especially in retrieving their student ID and student email.

I honestly don’t know how they can be so nonchalant about the email. Weren’t they excited to go to school? I check my email every now and then to prepare myself before school starts! And I’m really glad that I organised my schedule for this trimester. I’m not judging, I’m just wondering whether I’m the only one who is enthusiastic about studying?
I need to keep it up though, so that I can continue doing this before every trimester starts.

An organised schedule and plan will bring a peace of mind.

Anyway, I made friends quite easily yesterday! The first friend I’ve ever made was XF, and she was so funny, easy-going and really friendly. She also had the Malay accent a bit because she mixed around with a lot of Malays, along with her parents coming from Malaysia.

So it’s safe to say that we clicked.

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The 2 girls that I made friends with!

However, when I get to know more of my course mates, I realised I might not be able to spend everyday with them this trimester!

I’m exempted from 3 modules, and during this trimester, I have to take 2 Year2 modules in replacement, while the others are doing the 2 modules that I was exempted.

But the good news is that, I will be seeing them for 2 days since we take the same leftover modules for this trimester.

I’m honestly a bit anxious since I’ve never seen my future classmates for the Year 2 modules… I hope they are all nice. (And thank God one of my course mates will be going to the same class as I am on Monday! I think she has 6/8 module exemptions. Pretty cool.)

 

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My student card !

Over all, I’m pretty much ready to start school. Despite the stress over allowance and transport money (my part-time pay is for me to save for my trip to Australia for Professional Experience), I am determined to learn!

Besides wanting to have good grades (so that I am eligible to head to Australia), I also want to make new friends and gain experience during my uni years.

I am also interested in joining Music Club in my uni. I heard they do performances on charity shows and volunteer work, so I guess why not? I think that makes my resume look pretty much polished for work!

At the end of the three years, I’m looking forward to a transformation of myself as a talented educator who had conquered challenges in all aspects of her life. InsyaAllah, all will be well.

xoxo

Amira